We Are A Balloon Of Emotions In A World Of Pins
It is simple. We are a globe full of emotions in a world full of pins. I’m talking about you, that everything excites you and that you live with feelings on the surface. Of course, it is what characterizes you. You stand out for your special sensitivity.
But there is a price you have to pay for being exceptionally emotional. Your concerns, your emotions and your way of feeling do not give you respite. They are with you through thick and thin.
And then there are the pins, which poke your balloon and spread your emotions. They do not understand that your skin is fragile and that, if they approach you, they will cause an explosion, an irreparable break.
You try to hold your emotions in the air but you don’t always succeed, just sometimes. You end up with a part of them in your hand and another part scattered on the ground.
Now you have to get another balloon, this time a little more resistant. You know that sooner or later another pin will arrive and that you will explode again. However, this new pin sure has to get a little closer to you.
“ I am going to put my balloon inside another balloon. I will gain in protection ” , you think. And this is how you ended up putting on layers and layers to protect yourself from the outside. As if you were an onion.
“ The pin that wants to reach my emotions will have a lot of work. I will not allow him to harm me again ”. But it is neither so rare nor so difficult that another pin ends up exploding all your barriers.
And start over. Collect your emotions, very carefully, to go buy a few other quality balloons that protect them.
This time you will paint each balloon a color and write some words for everyone to see:
# 1- I’m always fine, nothing happens to me.
Denying our feelings is one of the most common balloons. This makes us not be aware of what is happening to us and, of course, not face it.
If we are not able to describe moments of our life in detail, we have stopped thinking about the everyday. This, of course, has dire consequences. If we do not learn from what we have experienced, we will make more and more mistakes and we will not recognize ourselves in our actions.
# 2- I don’t need a hug
There is another balloon specialized in denying contact. This is one of the darkest because it takes us away from the real world, making us reject the possibility of reencountering those pieces of life that others offer us.
Frida Kahlo said that to wall our feelings is to risk being devoured from the inside. We want to be loved but without showing fragility, without opening our hearts. There are hugs that can mend our broken parts, but we have to let ourselves be hugged.
# 3- I can with everything
But the reality is that moving with the armor is complicated and takes away our freedom. In the end we have inflated so many balloons that we do not know how to stay in the air and relax.
Holding this attitude is likely to give us an illusion of control over our emotions, but it is a mirage. Something painful happened, but the fear of suffering makes us mask our true reality.
# 4- It’s my character, I am who I am
Okay, you are the way you are and you defend your right to be… But do you speak for yourself or for your armor? You are probably putting on a mask, an eye mask so that no one knows what is inside you.
This balloon will be able to protect you from many pins. However, while it may make it easier for you to fly over some complex situations, at other times it will become an even greater burden. This situation, far from minimizing suffering, will generate even more.
We protect ourselves from who we think we are by putting on barrier balloons. But, one fine day, we get caught behind them and can’t get out or breathe.
